Nine

That moment when people talk down to you...

Your confidence is low
You feel lost and lonely
You even wonder why someone who should be so close to you seems like they're turning their back on you

That moment where people ridicule you...

You're scarred
You're scared
You're chock full of sorrow

Years later, you finally overcome the fear and realize how much of a disease it really is. Feeling strong, you walk over to the water and stare at your glistening reflection. Flashbacks begin to engulf your mind...

You take a seat and cry for about an hour and realizing what you missed because of the plague. You can't go back nine years, but you can go forward nine minutes and begin to make a difference!

When you mentor someone, they call you “the best tutor ever”
When you lead an organization, many people thank you for your contributions
When you help the people you love the tools they need to thrive, they kiss you at your feet
You realize how much you have paid it forward. You can get people off the ground. You have the power!

But you're living on borrowed time in a borrowed space
Alone in a place that isn't really yours, but you use it anyways
With headphones blasting metal
Wanting to lock yourself away
But being in a public place
Sipping on a drink
With the loud piercing sound keeping me sane
That's what I say
While I stare into space...

If you walk across the water with a humble mind
You will complete your task and get quite a few gold stars
You will be viewed as a hero to your peers
The water will hold onto the nine minutes you have to complete your task
Completely alone
But you still survive

If you walk across the coal with an arrogant soul
Your heart will be sold
The devilish spirit will make you cold
But you think you're bold
You think you're so smooth, eh?
In due time, your life will just revolve around needing nine of everything

You have nine friends
Nine lives
But not nine strikes

You need to have a proper frame of mind
Or the clown mirrors will attack your perspective
You're alone in a room caught in a hurricane
Seeing yourself as just an animal...

Curling into a ball, you sob, waiting for someone to come rub your back
At least you're not always stuck in the background
That's what a frontman does
A president is a leader of an organization
But can a woman do something this big in a world that shouldn't see man as superior?

Will everyone understand... or just some
You just need to come
Come back to where you're from
So you can show how it's done!

Everything is a big pile of maybe
Indecisive...
Insecure...
Impossible...
On the minds of many
Maybe should take nine minutes to ask yourself why...
Do you want this nonsense to last?
Or do you want to take a trip into the serene beauty?
Just modulate...
Maybe that will take you somewhere
Where nine isn't your life...

Don't give up
Keep going
Don't let life bring you down
Just the normal cliché things one would say to motivate...
Inspire...
Impact...
Implement...
Indestructible...
Admirable...
Success!
If you do those, you can free yourself from nine
And enter into the magic world of now!

Stars

You're breaking inside. Every bone, every emotion, every last feeling...
You give me chills down my spine.
Should you stay or leave?
Do you feel like you're hiding in everyone else's shadows? Who would want that?
Your goal is to be a leader

If you're the best leader there is...
You are unbreakable
You are unstoppable
You are the ultimate!


Why are people so opinionated?
Why do people enjoy judging others and driving someone into an emotional hole?
You wish people understand...
There will be no sacrifice


How is it to be you?
Do you love you?

Do you want to live in the shadows of despair?
Do you feel torn?

Surviving is more difficult than it seems
So many are lost so soon, especially ones you'd least expect
If you hit the wall, do you feel like you leave pieces of your emotions behind?
Do you want to hold yourself together?


Look into the stars
Realize how beautiful you are
You are never too late
You are never last in line to ANYONE
You are always first

The line is yours
This life is yours

You are you
Realize you are you

Ignore those who hurt you
Disregard those who create fumes
Because you are the only who in the picture
It's just a known feature
Look into the details of your amazingness
And you will be fine!

You never need proof
Because your heart is all you need!
As long as you look up into the stars...

Painting

The pile is filled so high
How high can it go?
Before it weens itself away, you begin to ponder...
Ponder about life's mysteries with an analytical point of view

Looking closely through the glass
Looking closely into the thin paper filled with words
The tide rises high
Your mind spins in cycles

Your feet are firmly planted on the ground
You want to stand tall with a short stature
Get the liars away
Get the haters away
Get the condescending away
Don't let life slip away
You think this makes no sense?

Things can be purposefully vague
But that just mean you need to take a look inside
Take a look inside
Your maker is right within you

Your heart glows wide
The positivity shines through
You take pride in your personal art
You take pride in the different
You shoot out what you want
Dressed up as you
Before your insides are sucked out by the fire
The fire that will make you dead inside

You are you
He is he
Take pride in the you
Take pride in the now
Take pride in the me

Pride and consciousness are your best friends
Don't suck yourself dry
Don't hide in silence
Serenity is yours if you give it to yourself

Don't freak the freak out
Keep a calm head
Swiftly swim through the serene layout
Thrive for yourself
Never for anyone else

If you're going crazy, resurrect yourself
Because life is how you paint it
This is your painting
In your own riptide
Does this make sense?

Wake up
Read inside
Not just within the bare bones

Sound confusing?
That's how you think when you begin to start your own painting of life!