Freedom from Strings

I feel a scream coming on...
The entirety of my being publicly sits in solitude in desk land... impatiently waiting for a green light...
Is there a "spend all day talking to your boyfriend" card I could pull just for one day as we act as slaves to The Man...

Can't it be assumed I can exercise my altruism and passions for making a difference?
But virtually my entire day is locked away not feeling at bay as the grey never goes away,
And my heart stands confined in its shiny gold box glowing and begging to be utilized...

I'm ready to explode already...
Struggling to maintain full consciousness and a professional demeanor as my mind wanders elsewhere due to the engagement switch shutting itself off... My poor heart remains confined...
I feel like a pink light in a grey world waiting to be noticed and be granted a release from the ball and chain...

My emotions are tempted to attack themselves because they're unable to protrude through the cloudy grey skies...
Goddamnit, why does society expect us to wear fake smiles all the time? We're people... and emotions are part of people... in ANY setting...

You know, humans lacking emotions are robots... right?

I've been ready to exercise my strength for awhile now...
I don't want my self-doubt running about...

As I keep waiting indefinitely for my future to unfold... wait a minute.... why am I waiting? I could go find opportunities right now!
Why am I waiting? Because I'm too scared to want to make a move?
Why the fuck am I waiting? Because life, it's time to take a stand...

I'm ready to take on the world now...
When my bravery needs to boast itself, my heart engages...
Because time is ticking away and I'm sick and tired of fucking wasting it away bullshitting myself all the time...

The plan of attack has been in motion for so long but when will you know that something will happen?
I want it now! Like Violet the selfishly impatient child...

But fortunately, there's always a way if your heart posses the right drivers to push yourself into success land...
Just do it!
Why wait?
Go free yourself from your strings!

Open Mic Nite Performance Of "Stop Doubting Yourself"

This handy little poem is basically me advocating for people to stop doubting themselves.



I deviated a bit from the original script due to working on getting more comfortable not having a paper with me, but the original words of wisdom are here: http://dbzmaron.blogspot.com/2014/07/stop-doubting-yourself.html



This was taken at Wicker Mic in Wicker Park, Chicago on 8-29-14!



Enjoy!

Stop Doubting Yourself

Here is me telling me and the rest of the awesome universe to stop freeking doubting themselves and putting themselves down. It's not healthy and not in your toolbox for happiness either... Here are my words of wisdom on this subject:

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Dear beautiful universe,

Why... oh why must you doubt yourself like most of the general population? In a world where the norm says that confidence is key, it also appears that much of the norm also lacks said key aspect, but why?

Have you been bullied before? Have you been mistreated a ton? Or even cheated on, defeated, or stomped on? Figuratively to the last part of course... Is your support system diminishing? Can you even not count on your family for anything? If you've said yes to any of those, you may have been in a world of hurt at some point in your life... unfortunately, all of that garbage can lead to feelings of unworthiness and thinking you're someone less than who you really are and what you're truly capable of accomplishing.

If other people telling you that you can't do this and you can't do that and xyz the list can go on, don't listen to them. Yeah, that's easier said than done... been there, done that several times, but one big thing I say is that if you genuinely do suck at something, you'll know and be 100% sure. As much as other people's opinions don't matter, receiving positive enforcement always gives a glimmer of hope and then some. If it's your friends that are causing you to doubt yourself, then nab a group of friends who embrace you and give those jerkfaces that you're currently chilling with a "third finger salute"! Don't let people suck the life out of you... because only YOU are in control... not those GOONS!

If your family is doing that, same rules from above apply! No really, they do... except give them the finger on the inside and just prance away into the distant light...

It breaks my heart to see tons of people holding themselves back... from other people’s words too... and of course I'm guilty of doing the same thing plenty of times... but not only does it hurt, it's also a deep hole to dig yourself out of... and I am currently in the process of climbing my rear end out of that same hole...

If you realize how much you're depriving yourself of the list of first amendment rights, you'll realize how much you're truly damaging yourself... You need to be more aware of the fact that we're free to paint out own designs as we please to an extent, some restrictions apply... because you can make anything you want out of a bunch of dimes...! So if you're doubting yourself, stop it! Right now! You can snap yourself onto a positive track whenever you acquire that strong hunger for change and bettering yourself! Positive reinforcement always helps too to an extent!

Stop misguiding yourself and just tell yourself "I AM a good person", "I CAN do this", and "look how SUCCESSFUL I am" because you're generally capable of a lot more than you think. Find those who can feed you words of wisdom and give you a giant hug afterwards. Find those who support your every move, no matter how silly. Find those who can tell you that you made a mistake and encourage you to carry on.

You can do it, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it, you can do it... x infinite! Words are power, power is yours, the choices are infinite, and aim your goals higher than you think you can achieve... Keep reinforcing positivity in your life and the words "I can do it", no matter how out there and large your ambitions are and you'll be hugging the moon in no time!

With unlimited amounts of love,
Rebs McDuxler :)