Chill the Fuck Out

I’m not ok
The spirits in my heart are trying to take over
Where is the bay?
It’s all over the place…

Nothing makes sense anymore
As I’m trying to escape through the dark depths of hell
What do I do?
I can ward off the demons and chill.

Relax!
Before you fall on over
For the demon to take over
Why must it be me?
There’s a reason for that
Take a deep breath
And make sure to release the warrior inside!

Still hanging in there
Before I get even sicker
I don’t need a doctor
I need a miracle and a prayer
What I can’t see
Is where I need to be
Before the ship sets sail without me…

Take a deep breath
Before you fall on over
For the demon to take over
Why me?
It happens for a reason
Chill the fuck out
And make sure to release the evil inside!

Damn
What the hell is going gin this lifetime of mine
I hope I’ll be fine
Rest in pieces
Is where I’ll go if I don’t feed myself with love and healing
I need to get the fuck out of here
In order for me to see clear
What do I do?
Where do I go?
Just get up and keep on trying
(and don’t ever give up)

Chill the fuck out
Before you wage a war with the demon inside
Why me?
It happens for a reason
Then why not me?
It’s time to embrace life
Everything happens for a reason
You need to make sure to please yourself
So take a deep breath
And be are to release the beast inside!

Take a deep breath
And chill the fuck out
Take a deep breath
And chill the fuck out
Take a deep breath
And chill the fuck out
(and don’t ever give up)

Thank the Heavens for Life in Trying Times

When someone knocks on the door and wants to come inside
The desire for a mask truly comes to life
Putting on a show of pretentious false reality
Displaying a world of lies
For the public eye
Your skin is the costume to your bones
To either get decorated or ripped apart...

Something will come along soon as long as the proper path is picked!

Masking the pain will exacerbate the life wrapped behind closed doors
In front of the curtain there's unicorns, rainbows, and smiles
On the other side there's lightning and fear
With only a tiny peep hole to look if you dare
At the chaos behind the veil...

I don't want you to see me crumbling from the inside out
Nothing but perfect is ever enough
Caring will only do so much
But change comes from the flames within!

How much am I worth?
My senses are all that matter,
But when you're thrown into the fire by your own blood and clone
And further ripped apart by those who claim to share hearts
It leaves a scar larger than life.
Just let it pass,
Keep moving along,
And realize not all sights are sharks.
I am not my scars!

I don't want you to see me crumbling from the inside out
Nothing but perfect is ever enough
Caring will only do so much
But change comes from the flames within!

When the world owes you nothing
And people owe you money,
You pray the platform you're carefully standing on doesn't crumble...
There's such thing as stability
And it doesn't feel real except for mental tenacity,
The only thing keeping me alive!

I don't want you to see me crumbling from the inside out
Nothing but perfect is ever enough
Caring will only do so much
But change comes from the flames within!

The only thing to do in desperate times
Is to keep on going,
To never ever quit,
And thank the heavens for life!

Never Ever Give Up Pride

I have a bunch of song lyrics I wrote within the past few years (not too many new ones currently), and this is one of them. I generally write songs for metal music. All words enclosed in caps, **, and !!!!! mean the word is meant to be emphasized and screamed. Enjoy the more harsh side of me!

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Dear God,

Please hurry up!

Just make this world a better place to live in.

Open your eyes and see what people are suffering through!

This pit of pain needs to go away!

Is change as difficult as it seems?

While trying not to give up,

It’s difficult to overcome the feelings of being on a sinking ship

As life and time turn the page.

Why do people seem to never understand

Who us “different people” are trying to represent…

However, challenging society as one of those “different” people

Comes with a large price and an even greater reward.

The evil spirits are terrorizing us,

Causing countless casualties to the colored.

Bliss seems to be in distant lands.

Some may even be crazy enough to embark on these journeys alone while never giving up

*PRIDE!!!!!*

It’s what we see in our minds.

Everyone wants a glimpse of this beautiful victory.

Sometimes there are people down on their luck

*screams* Look past it,

Get over it,

It will be over soon.

*Never let those fuck ups pry into and destroy your glorious chant*

We all analyze society

And how much of a hot mess it is,

But we continue to roll along in lala land

On the painful march towards the glory road of life

*AND LOVE!!!!!*

Throughout our youth,

We’re oh so sheltered and think our destiny is as small and direct as an acorn.

I was told you need to do xyz, go to school, get a job, and off you go goodbye!

It’s such a bust…

When the adventures take shape,

The field of vision morphs from an acorn to an ocean!

Some wonder why

People want to toss the towel in so soon.

All it does is hinder your life.

Patience is your ultimate virtue

Don’t rush into the current of the tide

Or you will drown.

When you’re stuck on the ground,

Don’t frown

Because there are always ways around.

Once you make it to the top, 

People will see you as a guru and use you as an example.

Keep your head in the game

And be the one to go out of the line to get straight to the top.

While society brainwashes itself with excuses,

There is a select few who decide to look for the secret levels across the fire pit.

It’s scary,

Be wary,

Keep going… and never ever give up

*PRIDE!!!!!*

It’s what we see in our minds.

Everyone wants a glimpse of this beautiful victory.

Sometimes there are people down on their luck

*screams* Look past it,

Get over it,

It will be over soon.

*Never let those fuck ups pry into and destroy your glorious chant*

We all analyze society

And how much of a hot mess it is,

But we continue to roll along in lala land

On the painful march towards the glory road of life

*AND LOVE!!!!!*

It’s scary,

Always be wary,

But keep on going… and never ever give up

*PRIDE!!!!!*

(This was written in August, 2013 and revised January 6, 2016)