Quarter Life Crisis: Reflections and Realizations From Being In Your Twenties

When you reach a certain point in your life, you end up reflecting and wondering where you are and where you want to go. If you think everything is crappy and feel like you're going nowhere, chances are it's not true. If you have independence, income, talents, drive, and a support system, you're doing a lot better than you think. If you have a college degree, you're definitely doing better than you think. If you're young, you don't have to have all your shit together. If you feel like other people who are younger than you are finding success faster than you, you have to realize how different their life and journey are than yours. It’s impossible to replicate someone else’s situation and need to accept your own circumstances. As long as you’re making and recognizing forward progress, you’re on the path to success. Everyone finds themselves, lands ideal opportunities, and realizes their dreams at a different pace. It’s ok if your success comes a little bit later than someone else. Just make sure to keep trying, keep adventuring, and continue being willing to accept a possible chance of failure. At times, you may feel lost and have no idea which direction to proceed in at the crossroad. It's ok to question where you are. It's ok to question your faith and where to place it, especially if your parents forced religion down your throat. It's ok to be uncertain of where you want your career path to go. It's ok to fail and fall on your ass as long as you maintain an awareness and refuse to give up. And it's definitely ok to be single and focus on yourself. If you want to change the world and have an idea of how to do it, keep believing in your idea and working on your idea and it will come to life. Patience and resilience are the answer. But be careful, because even superheroes have limits! Just don't be afraid to live and use your heart and intuition as your guide! Make sure you share the love, too!

Running Around

My poetic version of what it feels like for life to be a complete adventure and having numerous errands to do. Enjoy!

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Running around, running around
Where the hell do I begin this stream?
My brain feels tight
There’s thoughts wanting to fight
As I’m holding back with all my might
It’s definitely time to take flight
Without any fears in sight…

Adventures everywhere
Sometimes make me want to pull my hair
While in transit all the livelong day until my body refuses to stay awake…
Because a break seems nowhere to be found
When all you're doing is running around…

Running around, running around
I'm finally free from sitting in this box of loneliness all day
After feeling like the kid who gets in trouble at school and has to sit at the desk in the corner facing the wall...
The sounds of “What do I do? Where do I go?” vibrate within my mind
Only seeing the time fly faster than a bullet train reaching its next destination
While the hours, the minutes, the seconds, vanish in the blink of an eye...

A void from being stuck in the norm needs to be flooded with fulfillment,
But there's a storm cloud
Encasing my creativity in a chainmail shroud
Which must be torn…

What do I do? Where do I go?
There are too many cells flowing on overdrive in the hive
Of the next steps to take in the life of a young twenty-something millennial…

When you were a child, you had a vague idea of what you want to do when you grow up…
Firefighter, doctor, nurse, lawyer, businessman…
Which for me, over the years, evolved into poet, web developer, martial artist, sword fighter, chef, nerd, healthspirer, blogger, youtuber, warrior, musician, producer, singer, lyricist, volunteer, comedian, game show winner, novelist, teacher…
What the fuck do I want to do?
As a computer programmer by day and artist by night,
The list is endless,
But in order to find opportunity, you need to be running around in networking land…

Running around, running around
Where on earth is destination to be found?
You won’t find it if you don’t go exploring…
But preparation and opportunity must meet in the middle…

Running around, running around
It's time to figure out where the dreams lie
With optimism, pride, and forward strides in mind
It's definitely time to go for a joyride!

Epic Chinese Buffet Adventures

So... a bunch of my friends have kept telling me that I should do standup. I have no problem in front of any sort of crowd, but I figured the best way I can portray being funny is a mashup between spoken word poetry and my crazy nerdy randomness. This story is derived from my two friends and I just randomly being in the mood to drive to a Chinese buffet one day and we eventually got there and indulged in Asian food and sushi goodness, so enjoy our crazy epic adventures!

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So just imagine you and three of your closest friends sitting in a room
You know, just on any old Saturday night in the middle of a wintery March…
Sitting on a couch, playing some smash, chilling out, having a good time, ambient music, good vibes…
Everyone is in touch with nature in some way, shape or form…
Some in the form of delirium, others in the form of sleeplessness, and others in the form of full blown consciousness…

WHAT!?!?

Like… being fully conscious,
Is that something that's SUPPOSED TO BLOW YOUR MIND OR SOMETHING?

DUH!
Like… What ever happened
To just being able to walk on the street
On any other Saturday night
And not seeing obnoxious drunk people just meandering down the streets…

Some are minding their own business
Other are tuned out into their own little alien world of theirs
There are even some crazy enough to walk down the streets and call you a whore and call you out and judge you just for being yourself…

WHAT!?!?!

Am I BLOWING YOUR MIND or something?

We just need to be fine-tuned to ourselves and not be strapped into some false sense of reality that we humans call distortion, but society calls it fucking up…
Meanwhile, we're all just trying to find ourselves in a place we call earth when the only perception of reality that we have is through our own eyes that started in the eyes of creation…

People need to act all professional, but what even is professional?
It seems to be a fine line between insanity and jaded with a touch of ginger, unless you know how to make a tunnel underground and run fast like Sonic the Hedgehog to barely escape trouble…
It seems like everyone just comes in every day… and while some seem to have a clear goal in mind, others just seem to be clunking around, yet they've been at the working place for years on end…
You wonder how they got to that position in life and you set yourself out to determine whether or not you truly want that to be your fate…
But as you grow up, you gradually know how to string your fate together in to exactly everything you want in such an intricate way…
Everyone just walks around so gingerly, passing each other in the halls, just all that smalltalk, and maybe that "asking for a cup of coffee" to see how the other one is doing and how they continue to bask in their success every day…
You just walk along on your own merry way and take their tips and have a nice day because you know where success is and need to find it your own way…

WHAT?!?!?

Does SUCCESS BLOW YOUR MIND or something?

To top it off, if you want to bask in some success…
Then imagine a guy and two girls driving along in a salsa red soccer mom car
In a little secret town that feels like just another college town
And it's just a transgender guy, a white girl, and a big white guy just roaming around, in search for the Buffet that is oh so sacred to us at that point in time
And we eventually get there after having to turn around like 6 times because we were derping around and just passed it…

WHOOPS…

SO we eventually end up getting there at some point about fifteen minutes later all safe and sound, just like we beat the secret Mario level…
Oh yeah, that's right….
We SERIOUSLY saw Mario when we were driving along, NO JOKE…
But it was just another one of them crazy business ploys to attract more customers into their store…
Enough getting sidetracked…
My parents may think this is Mexican town or the ghetto
But really,
It's just another little hole in the wall that no one knows about
It's perfectly safe, I promise
I'd never do anything wrong
Just leave me alone and let me be…
But I digress…
Let's go eat some Chinese food!
And enjoy this sunny day!